21st February.

Like the beast I feel,

The beast whom an angel fell in love with,

The beast who must be kept secret,

For she will fall from grace if ever the beast was known.

Though living in this dark woods that I am familiar with,

I feel lonely and like a stranger to these plains,

Because without my angel,

I would never see light again.

If only I could gather my strengths to leap up into the sky,

Just to see my angel once again,

I would do anything, even sever these beastly claws of mine,

But I knew better that I would never be accepted there in Heaven,

For my looks, these hideous hides that cover my looks,

I would never survive the curses of the people from above,

I will forever be resented.

11th February.

Crying now as I think of you.
Thinking of how much I miss you.
The tears never stopped flowing ever since the day you left.
My heart feels like a huge part of it is missing.

Crying as I think of you.
Not the sad tears but rather tears of emptiness.
I wish you were here, back in my arms.
Wish I could feel the warmth of your body again.

I miss you Baby.

I love you.

9th February.

Baby, words are of no match to how I love you, they don't stand up to where my love for you stands. Your love fuels my soul, it fills me up, it brings me down and takes me up at time when I need you and at times where I need to keep my pride. The view of you lifts my heart up and my spirit gets revived, it was dead when you left, but now I feel resurrected from the gloomy feelings I've been feeling when you are not here. My tears drop as I hear your voice, my heart thumps as though it's coming out from my chest, like it has found its other half of my heart that belongs to you. And through timeless words, and priceless pictures, my love for you will never die. Never. Though at time you might've felt like it's fading, it actually never budge. Our love will never fade, like stars of night skies, they may be hard to find but they're always there.

I love you.

7th February.

Baby, I'm sorry I haven't been writing to you lately, I've been busy. But well, now that I'm not, I start to miss you, again. =( I've been trying to occupy myself with work, piles of them, so that I won't think of you, to avoid missing you, Cause' missing you is a very painful feeling. All that work was but no to avail. I couldn't stop thinking bout' you. The moment I stop to rest, your smile suddenly reappears in my thoughts. Gosh, you're really hard to not-to-think-of. Not that I want to forget you, I just wanna feel less depressed. I'm so miserable here, here without you. The distance really sucks. And the lack of communication as well. But nonetheless, I love you.

I love you i loveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou.

I love you.

30th January.

Oh God, I'm beginning to feel insane bit by bit, day by day, each day we're not talking. This feeling is really inside my head now. Banging on the walls. I feel like I'm at the edge of a cliff. Looking down to a bottomless pit full of misery. Baby, I miss you like crazy. Now's the time I can use the term crazy. I need to talk to you, and at the very least, listen to your voice for one whole sentence telling me you love me. Please do come online soon.

I miss you.

I love you.

28th January.

Sigh, baby. I need to talk to you now. I need you. =[
It sucks to now that only on the weekends can we converse. I really want to hear your voice now.

I love you.

27th January.

Baby, I've been missing you lately,
Been needing you lately.
I'm feeling so lonely,
Without your presence,
Without your bubbly,
Funny energetic presence.

Mia, I love you.

I really miss you, I really need to hear your voice now.
Sigh, If only there were a way to meet you, face to face. If only there were a way to let us meet in between all these distance we have between us. Let us feel each other, touch each other, whisper in each others ear. Baby, I miss you.

I love you.

25th January.

It's been a long day baby. You know how people say that their day ends with a blink of an eye? It's probably because they've been spending their time with their love ones, when they're having fun. Well mine was probably more than a blink of an eye. Your absence makes time move so slow. It's like I'm in this time warp where one second is to one hour. Come back to me baby, cause' I miss you. More and more with each passing second. Wish you were here to spend time with me. I'd make breakfast for you in the morning, shop with you in the afternoon, sing for you in the evening, lie down under the stars with you at night, till you fall asleep. I'd be happy watching you close your eyes under the stars while I watch you fall asleep. Oh how happy I'd be if that day finally comes.

I love you.

24th January.

Baby, I love you. You do not know to what extend I would do now to see you. Every time I look at a picture of you in my room I start crying. Maybe it's just the feeling of loneliness without you. I miss you, and I really want to hear your voice in my ears again. Your sweet voice, the voice that I'd come home to everyday, to listen, to savour, to make my mind be at peace. I hope you're doing fine there, and I hope you're thinking of me as I am thinking of you. 24/7, 60 minutes of every hour, 60 seconds of every minute, and even though I'm thinking of you that much, I still can't get enough of you. I do hope that I could turn back the time just to see you just one more time. Just one more time, I'd be happy. Knowing that I can't hurts me so badly. Every time I close my eyes, I see your smile. Every time I think of you, my eyes would start watering, and every time I write to you, my heart would beat so fast it wouldn't stop for nothing. My heart beats for you baby. I miss you, I really do.

I love you.